I STILL NEED YOU HERE

 

I can almost conjure the chirping of birds,

Little bees buzzing around.

The quiet small town,

The gentle swaying of trees.

My small frame enveloped by your comforting embrace,

My cheeks filled with hundreds of affectionate kisses.

I tried to act annoyed, but it always ended in giggles. 

I recall the rare smiles plastered on your face.

"Grandparents will not always be here,"

But I never listened.

All it took was looking away for a second, and years dissolved, 

A myriad of regrets replaced memories I held most dear.

I should have called, visited more often. 

I should have let you know I loved you.

I should have cherished those hugs I miss now.

I should have appreciated the little moments.

For then, all I could hear were sharp beeps in a hospital room,

The confining white walls of doom.

The sun refracted the light that would cease to be granted.

You claimed to be fine, so everyone pretended.

Bells clanged, my world poisoned with corruption.

Monsters from my dreams materialized the moment I crouched down, 

Eyes watery,

Placing flowers at the cemetery.

Devastation crowded my heart,

A young girl realizing

A journey of sorrows was about to start

At the departure of one of the few I let in.

But the Universe gave me a dream.

A cottage in the midst of a prairie

Where sunrays gleam.

I could finally say goodbye amidst the greenery.

You will never be forgotten, for I remember everything.

And all that was stolen during that cold spring.