DONT´T LOOK BENEATH THE SURFACE

 

You love all my smiles when we go on our little outings,

But when I get home, I drown in my own tears.

You chuckle when I sing my favourite songs at the top of my lungs,

But I cry myself to sleep, understanding the meaning behind the lyrics.

You marvel at the easiness I have with certain things,

But actually, it's just because I make no room for mistakes.

You like when I tell you about the stories and characters of my books,

But they're one of the few things that keep me sane these days.

You might think I have everything figured out, that I don't have any doubts,

But I don't even know where my place in this world is.

And when I look in the mirror, I see a girl brimming with joyfulness,

But as I stare at my reflection, I also catch a glimpse of the remains of those devastating battles...